Like so many special needs parents, I’ve spent  hours filling out paperwork and rating scales about  brad. 

what it feels like to anxiously wait in doctor offices, therapy lobbies, and school conference rooms…to go over the results of various assessments for my son. I’ve left meetings, only to replay the conversations in my head, trying to stay positive and put the negative  behind me. 

my son, Brad, is a strong kid . My son’s diagnosis alone is defined by a number, Level of  Autism spectrum Very verbal Anxiety ADHD After every doctors appointment  for my son, I immediately ask myself why it hurts so deeply to hear the numbers things that’s wrong instead of getting them fix.

It’s not my first time hearing it, I’ve heard it all before.

 I know by now what to expect in these meetings, and I try to mentally prepare myself for days leading up. 

It is soul crushing and takes my breath away each and every time. 

My husband and I love Brad  more than anyone on this Earth, but the school the phone called the list goes on and on we receives on evaluations day by day will never change that. 

Yet, I hurt  each time, after hearing them.I spend so many times reverting back to the stage of special needs parenting, and that is a hard place to be. 

Then after time, I manage to find my way back again. I remind myself that what matters the most about my son can’t be measured. 

 Brad  is a true medical miracle twice over. He entered this world via 32 weeks V&D just decided to come early. By the time I entered the delivery room I was already 5 cm there is no turning back doctors and nurses all worked together. 

I can still hear the doctors and nurse’s voice  that said, “We are trying everything but he can’t eat are breath at the same time.” Brad first days on Earth were spent in a NICU. 

At the age of 2, he took a hard turned his fever was over a 100 rush to the hospital Emergency room. He survived but ended up in NICU with two cases of bad virus . A doctor look at us me and my husband he’s not going home tonight.

There are no rating scales, IQ tests, or assessments that can measure the strength, and fight my brad  has inside. He is the bravest child I know.Brad  love for the simple things in life…So for all the negative feedback. No helps for my child constantly calling therapist,Tutoring, Am trying to stay positive for some hope.

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